October 28th, 2005 by sixpegs

i must be the most selfish person on earth.
dada is ill and i actually left him at boon lay
and asked him to take train back home on his own!
i have to admit i’m feeling very sian all day.
got no classes today and i went to school just that i can take a look at him.
i started out fine.
sigh. i don’t know..
i think i’m just too clingly.
and i’ll resort to any means to try to get things to work out my way.
i hate myself for this.
just now he called me and he said he’s very upset that i can actually be so selfish sometimes.
when i have headaches or whatever so,
he would come home with me and even stay over to take good care of me.
and to think that i won’t even put my big fat ego down to accompany him
for the short trip home.
he even said that its time that i should reflect upon myself.
i’m always so full of myself.
thinking that he should give in to me all the time.
i just miss having him around.
and i thought by doing all that i might be able to change his decision of going home.
feel so drained and empty.
it must have been the exams and all.
he looks just fine from the outside.
chirpy and all when talking to his friends.
but he said he’s just trying to put up a front to make me feel happier.

i am just so so childish and plain silly.
i really don’t spare a thought for the people around me?

i think i enjoy self pity very much.
i just love to make other people feel terrible, and tell myself i feel terrible too.
what is going to happen to me and whoever who will be with me if this goes on?

i’m such a stubborn and selfish person.
i think people should just stay away from me.
(look! i’m self pitying again!)
i’m such a failure. (ARGH! again!)

October 20th, 2005 by sixpegs

i’m on total mugger mode lately.
like yesterday alone, i studied alone in causeway point alone from 1pm to around 5 plus.
and from 5 plus to 8 plus with my miu.
took a break and then another 2 hours at night. hahaha..
can’t believe i can be such a hardcore mugger.

miu came over to my place yesterday night.
its like half his home already. haha..
i forced him to do a mask because i wanted to see his face behind the mask.
and true enough. he looked rather comical. haha. damm cute. lol!
check out those huge pink lips. hahaha!
looks yummier than strawberry agar agar! :p

i’ve been trying out thise loreal’s white perfect deep whitening mask.
one of my girlfriend recommended it to me, she said its good!
i tried. and i must say i really like it! :D
can feel the radiance bursting out of my skin after using it. hahaha..
ok, not so kua zhang lah.
but it feels good.
and i think if i use it long term,
it’ll be able to get rid of the pimple scars left from the previous outbreak. :(

today brought my camera out because i thought i would be meeting fanny for a study session,
sigh. but i attended my last tutorial and fanny think its a bit too late already.
she had something else on at night. so sad. so i just anyhow snapped snapped. hehehe..
watched “deuce bigalow” again.
still as funny as the first time! hahaha..
you guys should seriously go catch that show. :p

here’s my lecture kakis
from left sey long, vincent and cutie sok ser! hee. still got others lah.
but they weren’t around then.

hur hur… nothing else better to do.

this second guy from the left got the same phone as me!
first time i see someone holding this same model as me!!!
hahaha.. really very bo liao.

our favourite spastic pose!
notice that we’re wearing the same thing as yesterday night. hahaha!!!
bcos miu forgot to bring an extra tee.
and i think the sweater looks good on me.
it was cold last night so i wear a sweater to bed.
and it was cold this morning.
so i didn’t wanna take it off. lol.
dirty dirty miumius~
wehehehe…

October 16th, 2005 by sixpegs

i hope the sky over every soccer field in singapore floods every sunday.
and saturday.

October 16th, 2005 by sixpegs

ahh.. i’m in no mood to mug. i miss shaowei.
feel stupidER and stupidER as i look through my notes and tutorials!
fucking frustrated with myself so i decided to stop lookin through them!

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!

:(

he’s not around. stupid weekend.
if only its weekdays and i’m in school.
at least i can see more human beans.
ahhhh… i’m bored stiff.
everyone’s studying.. and i’m not. la la la la la..
i like this new blogskin i got.
its exactly like how i feel now.
jaded and feeling sick of everything.

melvyn msged me yesterday.
he said he and his group of friends were at sembawang park,
having an overnight fishing gathering.
he asked me to join them but i declined.
it has been ages since i seen levi, lionel, yuefen etc and of course melvyn too.
they’re really nice people. hope the exams will soon be over.
and i should perhaps go meet up with them soon. :)
shaowei should be having his usual soccer game now.
except that today’s game is being arranged to be right smack in the middle of the day.
yea yea. sunday is supposed to be his soccer day with his mates.
so sunday is supposed to be my lonely day now.
grr. i hate boys.

i miss fun. gonna meet up with old friends really soon after exams!
WOOSH!

October 15th, 2005 by sixpegs

went granny’s house to pay her a visit today.
but really kinda bored there today.
slept and studied half my day away there.
and shaowei din come along this time because he had to do his projects at bernard’s hse.
sigh.
so sad without him. haha..
here are some pictures taken in the last few days.
met up with cheewei day before yesterday for a casual dinner and movie.
caught “deuce bigalow” together in the theatre.
fucking funny. hahaha. it really feels great catching up with a good old friend once in a while
:)

its saturday night.
and i still got no plans for tomorrow.
is it going to be study and rest at home again.
damm shit.
i just found lobangs for holiday short term jobs again. haha..
damm happy. money money money.~~
lol.

here’s goody-two-shoes mr nice, mr lee cheewei.
if u’re single and need a good man, and takes a fancy for him.
u can email your resumes in. haha..

we’re in the total goofing around mood after that slapstic “bigalow” flick. hahaa…

October 12th, 2005 by sixpegs

so here’s the outfit i mentioned. hee.
i only slept for 2.5 hours last night! BOO!
spent 3 hrs doing the presentation for the 8.30am class this morning.
so damm waste time lor.
and tomorrow i still GOT QUIZ! A R G H . . .
stress ah stress ah…

:”~(

but like what sweetiepie said!

“don’t give up when you still have something to give. nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying. “

chooooooooonnnnnnnggggg AHHHHH!!!!

but for now, maybe taking a short nap is the best solution.

October 11th, 2005 by sixpegs

i flunked my soil test again today. i’m so disappointed with myself.
because i studied for few days to prepare myself for the test.
very sad and angry with myself when i realised that i did all crap work in the test.
s i g h .

i must work harder for the final exam to earn back what i’ve lost! GRR!

there’s a presentation for me tomorrow morning.
another test day after tomorrow.
3 tests next week.
exams starting 2 weeks later.

com’on. kill me man.

*bangs head*

i feel so drained now. especially when i realised that all those mugging all leads to
lousy results.. no drive and motivation to move on at all..

i burst out crying just now when revising for my quiz on thursday.
i think no varsity student will study until they cry in the school canteen man.
blardy shit. i’m such a slow and dumb girl.
A R G H !
luckily miu was there. he kept me sane. at least there’s still him to explain stuff for me.
he is one smartie, i tell you.
and his girlfriend a dumbo.. shame on me.
but it kinds of balance out like this mah hoh. hahaha…
he’s popping by tomorrow to coach me for the coming quiz.
its always last minute. i hate it.

engineers are really miserable people.
SO HARD TO STUDY LOH!
*sweat*

BUT!!!! bought a cutie ring today! hee..
i know it looks kiddish.
but it really brightened my day so so much.
bought a new denim jumpsuit too. not really jumpsuit lah..
i’ll wear it tomorrow! can check it out in my style diary. hee.
ok, i go bathe and do presentation and then mug already.

sigh. a day in the life of a miserable engineering student.
please don’t send your daughters to engineering courses in future yea.
*sobs*

October 9th, 2005 by sixpegs

i studied for like 5 minutes today.
hahaha.. niccee right.
went to cut my hair today! wahaha.
i know i’ve been ranting that i wanna keep my hair long. but i was tooooo bored this afternoon.

no choice.

new hair! yippee! feel like a boy now. hahaha..

like candy lo’s!! i like i like!

hahaha.. photowhore.

hee.. here comes more interesting ones. doing a mask at night. hopefully it’ll salvage my pimply face.

*sobs*

goodnight kids.

October 9th, 2005 by sixpegs

S I A N .

bickered with mok shaowei just now. freaking hell. sigh.
hate it hate it hate it.
i think i’m glue. sticky sticky glue! *grump*
grow up puhleese peggy! GRRR!

i think nobody is as sticky as me.
but i just feel like seeing him everyday.
p o s s e s s i v e ?

(i don’t think so leh.)

wth.

October 7th, 2005 by sixpegs

ITS FRIDAY!!!! yay~ yippee~

i had a long day in school today. yesterday din get to see dada for very long. :(
only a little while when he was leaving my house for school.
and today only got to see him over breakfast. poor miu.
i miss him very much.

“hi mokie, if you’re reading this now, i wanna announce shamelessly that i missie you alot!”
you better accompany me for darrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrnnnn long tomorrow,
if not i’m going to strangle you.
i’m gonna kill you.
you know downright!

hehe.. *chuck chuck*

he had to stay in school until about 9 plus 10pm to do his project.
poor chap. in school from 1030 in the morning to 1030pm at night!
he actually had a JC class gathering in the evening, but he had to give it a miss!
i think he must be feeling very disappointed and sian abt his stupid schoolwork.

ABOLISH SCHOOLS!!!! *groow*
lol.

i miss my boyfriend! ARGH!!!

met up with gladys in the morning to do our effective comm assg. (-_-”)
damm damm damm sian to tabao this subject lah. ultimate already.
grr. and i haven’t been attending classes regularly this semester.
and i won’t be surprised if i tabao it again this time. sigh.
i hate effective comm.

less than one month to final exams!
i must work hard! on probation this semester already.
and mom doesn’t know. (shit)
if i get kicked out or smtg, she’s going bonkers!

just now received a call from my uncle.
haha.. my aunt-in-law’s niece needs help with her sec2 art assignments.
haha.. CHEY. art.. no kick.
and my hands were itchy when drawing was mentioned,
so i did her assignments for her (AS REQUESTED, *ahem*)
but seriously, this is not you should do for your kid man.
*shakes head*
not right not right. haha..
anyway, here is my sec.2 standard art-pieces.

(ok, actually my standard is only until sec2. so just nice. lol..)
ok, you can’t really see the shading bcos its kinda light.
because i keep making mistakes mah~ haha.. so must keep it light.
wehehe…~

October 7th, 2005 by sixpegs

October 6th, 2005 by sixpegs

Helped my school’s photography society with some photos today. haha..
i look so fake. gees. nvm. more interesting photos are all behind. heheheh..

-ARMPIT!!!. omigod. so ugly loh~

BUT AFTER A FEW TOUCHES BY THE GREAT ME,
wahaha.. nice~

I had another mini gathering with fanny dear this afternoon. and michelle came along!!
hee. so fun. although we only had lunch together at JP foodcourt,
we took tonnes of dumb photos together.
attracted alot of unwanted attention in the food court. so diulian loh.. haha..

-se mi mi pegs

-hahaha.. michelle look so wei qu. lol.

-fanny dear and mee! muah**
fanny claimed that her head is too big beside mine. SO…

-i decded to step forward. (-_-)

-then she thot it’s fun now to have big head. *shrugs* haha..

-this series is “chou nan ren and hu li jing”
featuring fanny the chou nan ren and mich the hu li jing.

-then mich the chou nan ren and fanny the hu li jing

-then the hu li jing is intoxicated with the chou nan ren’s armpits.. haha..

-i decided to stand up for fanny. being traumatised by chou nan ren’s armpit’s stench.

-grooooww~

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-and chou nan ren hates me! hahaha..

-alright. girls are double chins are attractive. accept it.

-gee gee! finally a sane shot of all three of us!

-fake smiles..

-3 “wolves”

-acting spastic. fanny is best at this. see for yourself. haha..

-the photowhores go home! weeeettt—–!~

I LOVE TODAY! yippee~

October 5th, 2005 by sixpegs

had a gathering with zzx and dorothy today! yippee.. will update more tml. so sleepy now. zzzz.

October 4th, 2005 by sixpegs

i’ve been sleeping so so much lately.
dunno how come i still feel lethargic and tired all the time. yawwwns.
exams are coming in a month’s time. and i can feel some stress already.
its a good thing. at least i feel a lil stress. not like last semester. haha..

shaowei says that reccos is going to organise an outing overseas end of this month to either taiwan or hk.
for those who doesn’t know what reccos is, its this kickass (blah) soccer team my miumiu is in.
he and his big group of besties mostly formerly from bukit panjang govt high.
reccos is ‘soccer’ spelt backwards. haha.. quite cool right.
ANYWAY, they’re going overseas! and spouses are included this time. hahaha..
i wanna go too.. and its one big group.
i hope my parents wld allow.. :”"(
so big already also nv go overseas with friends before. humphf.
anyway, i think my comlexion is improving le. hee. all thanks to my nice miumiu.
buy me this scar removing cream. acc me go buy masks. help me check forums what kind of creams are good. hahaha.. :)
hope it improves really soon! hehe..

till now, my mom still know nuts about my tongue stud. i’m really quite surprised that i can hide it from my mom for so long. i think i can eat quite normally now already. like buns, rice, normal food, as long as i peel them into smaller pieces before eating, i can consume them like last time. hee. what an achievement! i think i’ll confess to her when my piercing finally heals. this is to make sure she has no excuses to scold me at all. what might infection ah, might affect speech ah, might die ah blah blah. wait till the piercing is healed and i’m still kicking alive, she’ll have nothing to say. *yes!!* lol.
i’m counting down to the day where i can go shop for a shorter stud to change into. hee.
i can’t wait i can’t wait!!!! *thrilled* soo happie!! weeee—-tt!
it still feels kinda weird now. i can’t “psst” at my friends in the library now simply bcos no sound will come out when i try to pssst. haha.. and i can suck my fingers after eating rollercoaster yesterday, i can’t suck up the wanton noodles dad made for breakfast this morning. *bang*
ALL THESE WILL BE OVER SOON!

oh man, i can’t wait to go out and have some quality fun! grr.!

October 2nd, 2005 by sixpegs

no university student should be complaining of feeling bored now. they should either be studying, or revising, or practising their sums or something. but GRRR. i slept till like 3pm earlier. but am still feeling like a log now. my family’s gonna have steamboat dinner tonight. i bet my mom’s gonna find out about my tongue soon. haha. damm. hope she doesn’t pull my whole tongue out at the sight of the stud. lol. dada hurt his neck. sprain or strain. i dunno. but i reckon he’s feeling terrible now. i guess he’s having his nap now. later he still got lab report to do. poor darling. feel so sian now. if only there are no exams.!!! exams are coming in a month’s time. terribleterribleterrible. i’m still quite behind time wrt to our schedule now i think. must jiayou le.

sometimes i’d think about tomorrow. in 5 year’s time, what will i be doing? does everyone think about stuff like this too? living is so meaning less isn’t it? sigh.

October 1st, 2005 by sixpegs

-here’s zzx when he accompanied me to pierce my tongue 3 days ago. he’s gg to be enlisted soon. gonna miss him! T_T

-a rose miu bought for me while we were studying today. haha.. he told me he was going to the toilet! but went to buy me this pretty champagne rose. he deserves a kiss! *muah*

-and for huiling who keeps asking for pictures. i took some just for you just now.
*ahem* your face “big” ok. haha..

-my tongue looks really gross and filthy now. and trust me, you won’t wanna put your nose too close to my mouth when speaking to me these few days. shiiit.

-me kissing dada’s rose!! weeeeetttt—!!! and i really hate my complexion! just what the hell is wrong with my face! URGH!!!!

watched “wait til you’re older” starring andy lau earlier. its nice! not like “FUCKING GOOD % STARS SHOW”, but its really heartwarming and nice. andy lau’s really good. to think his skin can still look so shingshing and good with that THIICCCCCK makeup! i salute his professionalism and he’s really drop dead charmming. swept sindy dear off her feet. and just swept me off too. haha.
matured men are really attractive. haha.
and its the first time i saw shaowei cry! haha.. ok, i shouldn’t add the “haha”.
i know how most men think about only girly girls cry during sad movies.
but com’on. sw is human too. and i’m glad he cried to the show.
means he still got some humanity. haha.. anyway, do catch the show if u love flicks where u’d feel more loved after watching. :)

just now i asked sw if he’ll still accept me if he finds out tt i was actually i transvestite like..5 years or so after we were together. and he gave the”wrong” answer. haha.
he said he cannot accept the fact that i USED to be a man. and probably will have to leave me.
oh man. to be honest, i was kinda disappointed when i heard the answer.
its like, (i know it sounds crazy) but we’ve been together for so long and just because i USED to be a man you wouldn’t wanna be with me?
i know everybody has some limit to what they can accept regarding homosexuality, lesbianism, sex-change blah blah.. but if i were to find out that sw was actually a woman like a decade ago, i will still love him the same way i do now.
but he’d better be a pretty woman. lol. kidding.
chey. i shouldn’t be spending my time revising instead of thinking of such weird questions.

October 1st, 2005 by sixpegs

sigh. like got not much time to blog these days. exams are coming. effectively, they’re still only a month and few days away. but i’m still soo soo lagging. it makes work so much more difficult for me. and the worse thing is, i’m so lazy! i can’t stand myself! *urghhhh*

my tongue piercing is considered ok bah. for those who are concerned, like siaowen. haha.. keep asking me not to pierce. :p its swollen now but actually i can’t really feel it. because its like swollen gradually and not BOOM swollen. so i’m fine with the gradual change. i realised that it is swollen only when i see the entire length of the stem of the barbell being taken up by the jumbo tongue. hahaha.. i’ve been religiously rinsing my mouth with the listerin mouthwash to clean it well. and of course, to try to help my stinky breath. lol. haha.. i can’t tolerate seeing my mouth so dirty. feel like using the tongue cleaner to clean it well. but i know i can’t do it! ARGH.
i can still talk. but feels unconfortable. so i’d rather not talk. (this adds on to the bad breath)
hahaha..
but the best thing is, because i was told to consume more cold food, i’ve been drinking ALOT of cold water. and alotalotalot of water. and eating all the baby food alike stuff. so i reckon, my pimply skin might improve after this disaster.
hopefully. yeah.? :)